a life worth living

i suppose to post more pictures alongside my normal blog entry. but, i forgot my ext wire in Kuching. thus, no upload. me in Sibu at the moment. (it's work.. a conference.. but fun nonetheless..)

"real joy comes not from ease or riches or from the praise of men, but from doing something worthwhile" ~ sir Wilfred Grenfell

and "anything worth doing is worth doing with elegance and style".

just to irritate myself and some friends (heeee.. heee..) <-- (evil laugh)

p/s: worth checking out: an article in the sun : speak up! "simple life worth living", oct, 1st. her words irritate me like kurap

last weekend

as promised, pictures from my last outing. 256 ++ steps to kg. Simuti. church camp with at least 700 other participants. i went with these kids.

i had fun. free, lively and wonderful time of fellowship, praise & worship. just what i need the most... (thank you guys, kamu jugalah yang paling sporting)

adei.. ter "sunburned" sy ni. kulit jadi galap.

dating him

this weekend is the time i've waited for a very long time. finally, an official date with my Oli. will spend the next 3 days with him! (ya, i am truly excited). him, and of course a bunch of teens.

new focus

the haze in Kuching getting worse. it doesn't help me to breathe easy (this, of course of entirely different reason). ya, i think i'm in love. (i knew, it sounds lame, blurting it out in here). i need time to figure this out.

this weekend, i'll be somewhere in the kampung for a youth camp. in dire need of spiritual rediscovery. i need His guidance. my life really need a new focus.

Jalynn sent me the CD (Delivered and Alive). i enjoy all the music composition. not so the vocal. sorry. especially, "Gerakan", the guitars are just awesome. and i cried, listening to Nimrod's "Ku Berlari". rest in peace dear friend, yours over. i wonder, how's my doing..

we will have a week holiday for Hari Raya, next week. happy holiday to all of us.

Jane. i forgot to buy that CD at midV. terus terfikir-fikir ni.. bagus tu dengar lagu yang melancholic time hati mengharap-harap. ya, your mare here, jiwang2 gitu.

i heart him

i read a post of a blogger friend with heavy heart. why give up on something/someone so easily? ain't anything special requires more efforts and determination?

i let go most of my saving to get "him". finally, i decided on olympus e620. main reason? he's lightweight, underwater protector and just because. and i think, i'm happy. and a few thousands broke. i just hope, i'll not get bored of him too soon. and many happy years from now, i'll look back and say, i'm glad i decided on oli.

p/s: if only i can tell a person, the obvious. that ya, kau pun tau saya suka sama kau. will it make any easier? will it hurts me more or will it hurts him more? i dont have any idea.

sorry

still suffer with my sleeping disorder. too tired lately. stayed up most nights. i'm glad it's over (the questions formulation). it ended today. but, still in KL to finally get to know him. i'll meet him tomorrow!. yay!

thank God for good friends. at Jane's. having a good time with Lahong and jane at Posen.

and finally internet connection, courtesy of Jane. and finally i can comment on blogs i frequent. and i'm glad for him. he make me think. a lot. and that is a very good thing.

trouble sleeping

i'm having trouble with internet connection. hence, no blog updates.

influenza A H1N1 finally hit our college. we're currently in a quarantine, until at least one incubation period. hopefully, we'll do fine. i mean, the student will do fine.

me in KK, visiting my student in the field. they were in Kg. Bongkud, Inanam, since last monday for gravity pipe system upgrading. i joined them yesterday. 30 km from main road and yet, no electricity. sedihnya!

a blogger friend fall in love. good luck!

and yeah. i have trouble sleeping.

get on high

surely, i cant get high on buying a furniture (or the notion of shopping for it). that's downright silly. but, as my colleague pointed out "iya, Lyd, kegembiraan kau tu jelas terpancar di muka". that was right after i knew, i can have a stool, custom made, of belian wood (urat-urat tangan sy jadi licak, dan jantung berdebar-debar). i have to have the stool and japanese table for my new nest. my first furniture purchase! i am so high!

that was last saturday. the day i spent with Dy and her Lun bawang family. the day i called a weekend suppose to be - picnic, talking with friends, good food, good looking people (wink! wink!). thanks to aunt Alice, now, i have in mind what my curtain lining look like. Dy loan me her Archer's "a prisoner of birth". halfway through. (ya Dy, i can get high on good book, thanks)

i have to mention Susan Orleans. she's a genius. and Nobu adilman, i saw him on AFC and.. GOD! (i try not to get high on them)

i bought new pair of hush puppies pump, just to add an inch to my pathetic height. (now, you knew, why i get high easily) duh!

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abis sudah baca tu buku dy,

kira happy ending bah juga. malas sy membaca tu detail of court proceeding. but, in the end, Danny=freedom + wife+ daughter+ son+Nick's wealth. tu penjahat semua masuk penjara. si Alex, Danny's lawyer rasanya hooked up with Sarah (tu another lawyer yg tulung c danny masa dia p Geneva). hahahahahah..

minggu akhir julai

beliau sedang berkabung kerana baru menyedari diri telah dilanda penumpukan lemak yang tidak terkawal sekitar abdomen dan penimbulan garis-garis putih selulit yang sangat menjelikan. kebetulan pula, minggu ini, beliau akan menghadapi audit dalaman untuk ISO dan mesyuarat pembentukan JSU peperiksaan yang rasa-rasanya beliau pun kurang pasti pembikinannya. beliau juga ada 14 jam kuliah minggu ini, 4 set soalan formatif untuk disiapkan. beliau baru berfikir.. mampos!

beliau sedang berfikir "what's for breakfast?". iya lah tu, untuk orang yang berkabung. she'll be fine.

nonchalant

i wrote about me attending a small congregation of peace and free lunch last week. i attended yesterday's fellowship. the best part of me being there was, i knew nobody, and nobody knew me. none bother to ask me who i am. the ladies treated me, as if i am an old member of the congregation. and i like the nonchalant way they accepted stranger.

we said farewell to Floria Elhoy Tait, she have to move to KSKB, Sg. Buloh. i tried my best to be nonchalant about it. but, i just cant. i felt sorry for the girl. all the best Flo!

all my life, i wish i am a person, caring enough, kind enough. but at the same time, nonchalant enough to ignore problem, pests and parasites from invading my enclosure. i tried not to sweat the small stuff. and being so, some people i knew, labeled me as uncaring and indifferent. maybe i am. life is full of complexity, it's my way to simplify it.

true chemistry

in chemistry, the 'nirvana' of an atom is to have electronic configuration of a noble gases, ie: stability. stability's achieved through electronic bonding/ chemical bonding. in subatomic level, bonding can be formed by either sharing the electrons/ giving and taking electrons. the later, stronger.

in life, people keep on saying marriage (bonding) can stabilize a person. and i agree, to some point. but, being unmarried, i have my own opinion regarding this: consider other options of bonding. well, maybe my opinion is less romantic. but, still, if stability is in question, it should suffice.

congratulation to Peter Creswell and Anita. God bless your holy union. remember, love will always triumph. (one of the best wedding i've seen. simple. lots of laughters. just families and close friends.) thanks for inviting me.

i start attending a small congregation at mile 16. nothing spectacular. just peace and free lunch.

get set..

just read "my sister's keeper" by Jodi Picoult. it's an earlier work of her, but i kept on hindering reading it. because i knew, it'll 'kill' me. and it did. (rasa macam mau menangis saja ni)

Dawn, thanks for the recommendation to read "Outlier". it's a good book. not so, the conclusion. somehow, it make me feel hopeless. but, then, its better to know, exactly where we stand and make the best of whatever resources we have. i struggled for a week, denying everything said in the book. how can i beat statistic? (different set of thinking style produce different outcome~this is but one way of looking at it)

diving into 2nd half of the year, make me realize: this gonna be tough. we have more kids to look after, more paperworks to be completed, i'll go crazy. dont get me wrong.. i love the job. honest. sometimes, i just hope the burden is lighter. mulau!

i need more time hanging with friends and family. and go for a longer holiday.. ehh..

a reminder:

190 new faces.

58 PKA. 30 girls. 4 boys and a girl from Ranau. loads of interesting characters. Glenn is one. (ok bah.. i knew his parents, he's good with guitar, and that easy smile!~ i hope i'm 19!)

2 weeks of no internet conn. and our semester's starting. belum pindah rumah... adui..

july's here. busy month ahead!

and i miss Manila. specifically, sinigang isda and the fish, deep fried bangus. astaga! kelaparan