Sunday, July 19, 2009

nonchalant

i wrote about me attending a small congregation of peace and free lunch last week. i attended yesterday's fellowship. the best part of me being there was, i knew nobody, and nobody knew me. none bother to ask me who i am. the ladies treated me, as if i am an old member of the congregation. and i like the nonchalant way they accepted stranger.

we said farewell to Floria Elhoy Tait, she have to move to KSKB, Sg. Buloh. i tried my best to be nonchalant about it. but, i just cant. i felt sorry for the girl. all the best Flo!

all my life, i wish i am a person, caring enough, kind enough. but at the same time, nonchalant enough to ignore problem, pests and parasites from invading my enclosure. i tried not to sweat the small stuff. and being so, some people i knew, labeled me as uncaring and indifferent. maybe i am. life is full of complexity, it's my way to simplify it.



27 comments:

jenkays said...

i miss times like that...di mana ko p satu tempat durang treat you as one of them...

life seems so complecated kan if you think so much..but if you let it passed by peacefully and enjoy it...kdg2 rasa nya best juga life ni...(jrg2 berlaku lah)

p/s org sudah pindah..ko bila lagi hehehe..tak nak tukar sini ker?wakakakka....

kukuanga said...

nauzubillah..
tak nak pindah lah cik. i dah fall in love sm Kuching..

ku ingin tetap disini.. (ingat tu lagu?)

wil_phil said...

Mis....sadis nya... sa tkjut jg dgar flo kna pindah p KSKB Sg. Buloh... sian bah mis... sian dia kna buli pulak sampai sana... baru ja rasa slesa kna pulak p tmpt lain...

jenkays said...

hehehe ya aku ingat itu lagu..tu lah terlampau nyanyi itu terus aku stuck sini sdah..!!i am tryin to fall love with this place again...

kukuanga said...

ahaks!
ko ni jen...

wil_phil,
ya.. menyedihkan jg, because i like the girl so much.. and mesti dia rasa tertekan betul tu, being a minority there. harap dia dapat sesuaikan diri. i dont think, budak berani buli dia tu. she's a black belt taekwando bah tu.

Dy said...

What happened to Flo? Why did she have to move? I'm sure she's a toughie - she'll rough it out! Dont worry.

Last nite i got the sms from Jane... i dont know those 2 personally, and i was deeply engrosed in a good book - so i tried to brush it aside - but sekali sedar, basah my bantal murmuring to Someone, asking for help. So much for trying to be "nonchalant".

Those labels of uncaring and indifferent, can only come from people who didnt "know" you. Their lost - not yours.

jenkays said...

my heart almost stop n i was stunt..but then wat could we have done kan...tetiba seram sejuk aku last nite...!!

kukuanga said...

Dy,
the "nonchalant" thingy was loosely used. i tried to express it in the most positive way possible. but, caring means attachment, attachment means intimate. and i hope, intimate means important. one cannot be attached and nonchalant at the same time.. silly me.

Flo was suppose to report at KSKB sg buloh, but her dad appealed for her to study in Kuching. our common practice was, to accept the student, if there's room. and we did. last week, HQ called and forced her to go report there. (they got many appeal letters from sarawakian students in KSKB to transfer to Kuching). well...

those 2 kids! i really have to thank God, i had an early nite last nite and only read the sms in the morning. i read the good one first. so its not that shocking la. else...mesti i pun nangis2.

good book arrr... remind me, i belum bagi balik ur Kinsella's book.

kukuanga said...

jen,

ingat ni lagu: "andai kutahu.. kapan tiba ajal ku, aku kan memohon,, TUhan tolong panjangkan nyawaku...." sambung.. ko kan expert lagu indon kini tok.

Dy said...

I got to get you reading that book i'm reading now... but wait till i finish it k!

Popong said it well for all of us - jantung tia boleh terima this kind of news anymore... hehehe.. but then again... i personally will marah if i'm not being smsed with this kind of news just coz my so called heart can't take it kunun. (again, so much for nonchalantnity (ada kah such word??) hehe

jenkays said...

togou:... aku takut akan dosa-2 ku...:P
(aku blur seketika ko suruh aku sambung lagu ni..)
i am trying to learn to be nonchalant...
"caring means attachment, attachment means intimate. and i hope, intimate means important."
my friends are like family to me..sory if i am to attach..!

kukuanga said...

jen, i like the song bah that. macam kita karok, aku pegang mic, lepas satu rangkap, pass agi to the next person.. kira macam tu lah maksud sy tu suruh ko sambung nyanyi.

Dy.. aku mahu! itu buku.

Dy said...

Togou - tunggu ah.. i kasi habis dulu... gripping the plot! Adei... but i too old dah... cannot stay up all night to read a book! Damn this age!

jenkays said...

ya aku paham tu lah aku sambung...aku memang suka lah cara kita karoks hehehe..memang pro wakakaka...wah i miss lah karoks time with you n fread...gila kita tu..!
can anyone digitize the book so i can read too...hahaa.aku buku2 ni kureng..kalo on the internet aku baca hehehe

kukuanga said...

Dy..
me too, macam terlampau penat kalau stay up all nite utk buat kerja. dulu lex jak.. getting old lah katakan..

jen..
hahahahah... ko tanya c Dy apa tajuk dia.. then, u google up. kan sekarang ni banyak buku ada dlam internet, mana tau ada. i still prefer paper lah

jenkays said...

korang baca then tell me summary la..atau blog about it hehehe..ini menunjukkan betaba malas nya aku hehehe....
terima lah kenyataan geng we are not as young as we use to be...tetiba ingat mamaks sampak 3-4 pagi tapi masih boleh p kelas the next day..!! how on earth kita bisa buat begitu ah???(adeh tetiba ingat jep...!!)

wil_phil said...
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wil_phil said...

champion 2 or 3 kali berturut2 kan kalau x silap... ahaaa.... tp dia jenis yg hormat org lain miss... takut dia kna buli gara2 dia hormat org.... jangan kan org lain... ngan saya pun dia segan + takut... saya dapat tau sblm dia p sg buloh, dia mau mintak gambar2 orientasi sama saya... step yg kasi tau saya.... kalau saya tau mmg la saya kasi ja... dia dah jalan baru saya tau.. adui....

saya juga snang sama dia tu... coz dia junior yg pertama minta tolong sama saya time pendaftaran... dia sesat... xtau mcm mana mau p asrama... saya cmfius... knapa pulak asrama puteri... (paham2 ja dia punya penampilan kan miss).... then sa tnya nama.... AH!!!! My God... nasib baik ada Cindy limpas... saya minta cindy hantar dia p asrama puteri....

Dy said...

Togou - u in Kuching? that day i asked coz my son wanted to send something to you. Time he buat that, he balik2 say later we sent to aunty togou k? (aunty jane - he knows kl is too far away to deliver! :P)

jenkays said...

i always wanted to ask this...DY DID you get ur MANGO???? (maap kalo mencetus kontroversi hahaha)

kukuanga said...

sorry na Dy,
sy d kuching but, bukan d rumah sy. so sweet of Noel! tiapa, tiapa... tis weekend. mesti jumpa!

jen... mango belum kesampaian ke tuannya. dont worry, as much as i miss manila..i wont dare touch that mango (nanti kena belasah oleh tuan dia!) ahaks! insya Allah, this weekend dapat di deliver.

jenkays said...

jgn expired sudah hehe..nanti terpaksa kita p lagi beli wakakaka..!! I Realy2 miss manila...!!

kukuanga said...

jen,
i'll check and erase out the date. hahahahahhaha!

Dy said...

uikkkkk... nanti tak pasal2 aku keracunan nanti coz date erased! heheh... tiapa bah tu... aku masih bertahan menahan air liur ku... mango oh... mango... hahahah

nanti see tonite if noel teda homework kami go send the biscuits... you eat butter biscuit eh? *actually ada marble cake he baked juak... but entah still ada sik!* :)

kukuanga said...

wah! butter cookies... yummy.. i want! come lah..

Dy said...

if tonite he teda h/work, we'll buzz u k! :)

Dy said...

Aty Togou... Noel not feeling well... karcheng (butt in hokkien) pain...

He got rashes bah that... that's what fatty pple always get kan... i think the effect sampai got fever si kawan...

We'll buzz u if he can shake off that nasty fever... else... saturday lah gamak nya...