Tuesday, April 28, 2009

God, i love him

I
what should we do?
he's seventeen 
and he's done schooling

we wanted him to study some more
but he mutely refuse

we insisted
and he cried

II
what should i do? 
should i believe in a seventeen years old boy's decision
should i decide for him

i want him to see the world
he is in his own world

he told me in his ever precious words
he just want to be a farmer
those few words killed me.

III
i love him
that's why its harder to just let it go
what should i do?

8 comments:

Dy said...

Ouch. That's a tough one. I am reminded of a word - "relentlessness".

I've just read a book - about teenagers - i fear those yrs that i am going to face.

It says about - telling them, advising on the wisest decision. Giving all the facts. but the final say in their hand.

but when things dont turn out the way their young mind dreams it to be, it's our turn to be relentless. "i told you so" is never in the dictionary.

kukuanga said...

ya Dy. sakit hati betul. i am referring to my youngest brother. ko bayang tu! he just want to be a farmer! and i'm not saying, being a farmer's bad or anything.. but, at least, consider all the options dulu kan?

saya rasa sangat tidak guna sekarang o dy...

Dy said...

saya tau tu ko referring to whom... coz hati wont be so sakit if not someone so dear kan.

dont know apa bah budak2 ni pikir... kalau si noel say to me like that... will i give him pelempang?....

Ko ingatkah kita selalu say bagus tak yah study tinggi2... abis form 5 lagi senang cari kerja! Dui... yang part jadi farmer ni... payah nya...

jenkays said...

can't say much sebab aku sorang adik hahaha..!! and i also wish to be a farmer too..!! can't say much cos who ever said a farmer's life is not good..times has change asal dia rajin and pressistant

sori ..anggap aku bersendeloka saja mengomen ini..

#smsbar...huhuhuhu...let go smsbar...

kukuanga said...

dy,
exactly!

jen.
we are not saying being a farmer not good. waktu muda2, go see the world dulu.. then, if u decided to be a farmer.. ok lah. jadi farmer yg well informed, ada pengetahuan. that will make load of difference.

but, then again. whats the use of a well informed sister kan? that lucky boy!

jenkays said...

ko kasi hantar dia p australia attach di farm sana utk 6 months...lpas tu see wat he say...? kalau mo murah kasi hantar di bario sama bapak aku wakakka...!!

Dy said...

hehehhe... kan???? bikin dia farmer yang lain dari yang lain lah Gou!!!! ;) .... kat bario pun ok ngan bapak jane :P

kukuanga said...

jen n dy,
ada juga limpas di otak sy cdgn ko dua tu. but, not Bario lar. ada satu tempat belajar mengenai pertanian di sabah (near Kota Belud n ada satu lagi di Tenom)

but, buat masa ni, let him be dulu. kasi stay put. biar dia rasa panas2.