Sunday, December 12, 2010

last saturday,

i turned 30. i stayed home and did what i always did on my birthday, i fasted. nothing religious in the act. it was just something i always did. (some of my friends knew i have a cry-day in a week --usually friday-- when i cry my heart out and the act makes me better. down there in my core. my soul?).

something happened a day before my birthday. it's like a heavy lesson for life from my 20's. DONT TAKE CRITICISM PERSONALLY. and when you're dealing with a woman, (especially menopausal) always coat your words with honey, and bear in mind, women are prone on taking everything personally and they're more judgemental.

where can i have Ruiz's The Four Agreements and Dasgupta's Solo?

somehow, i felt old. this, being thirty is depressing. maybe, if we let go of those usual expectations, it'll be easier. i dont know. or, should i rather, strive for that usual expectations and be what? normal? as expected?

6 comments:

Dy said...

Being 30 is cool! It's that age where we're sure of ourselves and can't be bothered with things that remeh temeh :)

Happy Birthday once again mate!

merapuswz@webber said...

Wah Birthday ko suda limpasss... HHappy Birthday to you.. God Bless :D

kukuanga said...

muahhaha Dy! i am ok now. need a few days to digest the fact that age really are not reversible! fool kan me?

hi webber!
ya. limpas sudah.

ppong said...

hepi bday! and, see u this weekend! cant wait to be back!

kukuanga said...

pong,
ya. c ya!

Tina said...

Hey, I like that bit you said about 'menopausal women'! I guess most women become a little crazy when they hit menopause. They can always blame it on their diminishing hormones!

Thirty is a good age to be. You're neither a silly, giggly young thing nor a staid, old matron. Have fun and enjoy your 30th year!