good morning

woke up real early today. it's cold! brrrrr! (like real cold!!). then, i realized i was sleeping on the floor (POTC!, we were watching that last night!) nobody bothered to wake me up (apa punya siblings!). poor big bro..he's sleeping like (sleeping la) about 4 fts away. woke him to go sleep downstairs and i head for my room. (almost 5, and i'm in love with my comforter... can't sleep, so i surf the internet, checking out others blog)

heeee.. found a very interesting link (a blog in my list to another blog) (she's in love with you!!- mau saja cakap macam tu, but... yay! so, busy body!)... felt  good to speculate...

back to earth. my room's next to my parents. i can hear them talking now,  in that hushy tone.. i love waking up to hear that voices, listening to them talking a while.. then praying together. i knew, today's morning prayer will be extra long. and... i'm waiting for sunrise (bising betul ayam!)

i feel good. 2009 will be  a great year for me. a year to look back and smile and thank God... G'bye 2008. . (been  a good year. more ups than downs) and i consider myself very lucky.

and a song to fit the mood... 

all her songs are my favourite. 

will go back to KK today. then.. to Kuching (i miss the place)

why? all intense feeling produce same stabbing like feel in our heart? (or should i make appointment with my doc to check whats wrong with my jantung?) time to do med-check up..

Happy New Year 2009

last post for this year. Happy New Year 2009 to all of us. May the new year bring us more happiness and blessing. but most important of all, may the new year also bring new challanges that will measure the strength of our character.

let us enjoy few days more of our holidays. enjoy precious moments with our family and loved ones

do i really need to get back to work? yeah you do. you love your job..(hahhahahahha!)

Keith Whitley

i love his "no stranger to the rain". but, i love this one best. "Tell Lorrie i love her" 

supersweet!

a very fine day

on a fine day,  

sometimes, we get lucky to see the blue sky

with blotches of fine clouds

(most of the times, we're just too busy to look up) (sigh!)

on  a fine day,

sometimes, we get lucky and get away

to an island

with friends we love to hang with

(most of the times, we're too busy minding our own business) (darn!)

on a fine day,

we get lucky to come across

with a person

we're more than honoured to be friend with

(yay! u guys rawk!!)

p/s: all pics were taken by Jane's Nikon D80. thanks jane!

belated birthday

yesterday was my birthday. 

celebrated it with my housemate, mimi. (dia yang makan lebih2!)

alahai... tua lah sudah sy ni.

chat with my sister for a very long time (banyak duit ko call sy Pong!)

wrote a very long entry to my journal. read last year's birthday wishes and surprised that almost 2/3 of the wishes did come true. so, i have to say, 2008 has been a very good year to me.. (dei... macam bacaan horoskop pulak)

one entry in my last year's journal, dated 18/12/2007 was this:

"without God, 

 life has no purpose and 

 without purpose, life has no meaning,  

 without meaning, life has no significance or hope"

i'm sure i copied it out from somewhere... just cant remember where.

(bah, apa sudah ni God?, apa kita mau buat ni satu tahun lagi?-providing that, yeah kalau Ko mau bagi satu tahun lagi)

after sometimes...

i bought a few books last month, and to my horror, last night i realized one of the book went missing. pasal, sy nampak dia punya resit, then sy cari semua tu buku mau balut pakai plastic wrapper (aku ni clumsy baca buku, but i hate my book to get messy)... nah... suppose ada 4 paperbacks..satu ilang...(God's Pauper). mencarilah semalam2. sudahlah... hilang ingatan sikajap (i really can't recall where i put the book). i only remember to read it up to... (what chapter arr?) where St. Francis and his companion danced in the rain.

then... without even trying, i found the book in my friend's car. resting (hmmmmm....) under the seat. when we went out for lunch today, my keys accidently slipped under the seat. lo and behold! the book!

sometimes, things happened. not the way we planned/ expected. it just happened. sometimes, we got little surprise like what i've experienced today. sometimes, we just need to work a bit harder. search a bit longer. sometimes, we only can wait and hope to get lucky. bah... life....

i blame it on the rain, my mood real damp and melancholic.. and no, its not hormonal. it just the rain and the longing to be home...sob...sob..

being melancholic

DREAMING WITH A BROKEN HEART - JOHN MAYER

When you're dreaming with a broken heart 
The waking up is the hardest part 
You roll outta bed and down on your knees 
And for the moment you can hardly breathe 
Wondering was she really here? 
Is she standing in my room? 
No she's not, 'cause she's gone, gone, gone, gone, gone.... 

When you're dreaming with a broken heart 
The giving up is the hardest part 
She takes you in with your crying eyes 
Then all at once you have to say goodbye 
Wondering could you stay my love? 
Will you wake up by my side? 
No she can't, 'cause she's gone, gone, gone, gone, gone.... 

Oooooooooohhhhhhhhh 

Now do i have to fall asleep with roses in my hand 
Do i have to fall asleep with roses in my hand? 
Do i have to fall asleep with roses in my hand? 
Do i have to fall asleep with roses in my hand? 
Baby won't you get them if i did? 
No you won't, 'cause you're gone, gone, gone, gone, gone.... 

When you're dreaming with a broken heart 
The waking up is the hardest part 

i read Tony Parson's " one for my baby" last night and fall asleep thinking of its theme. (the anguish of missing a departed loved ones) in this particular story, a man who lost his wife. and this morning i woke up, thinking  i'm so lucky to be alive. browsed through You Tube, searching for Jason Mraz and Colbie Calliat's "lucky". i ended up playing over and over this song by Mayer. he's one of those male singer, who have the intensity of melancholy in his voice. and God... his eyes!